my uncle always said

"go for the ugly boys.
they won't break yrrr heart."

haha, and everytime a new guy comes along.
i tend to remember that, and laugh a little to hard.
because it's the kinnnna thing that shallow people would say.
although it's been working out for him for quite awhile.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH, just kiddddding ;P

sorry pd. 2's a drrrrag.
boring, just texting "the beautiful bitch." (;
yrrrrr never gonna guess who.

i'm the happiest i've ever been.

yeah, this past two weeks, i've done nothing but smile smile smile. it's basically "endless" happiness. don't know exactly how all of this happened, but things do happen for a reason. & welllllll, he's the sweetest. no i don't mean, he's a sweet talker, and trys to get by with cheeezy pick up lines. no he's sweet like alllll the little things he does make me like him even more. he may not be the steeeziest guy in hawaii, but one things for sure is that i dig his steeeeeze, although he's got a bad habit of doing "illlllegal" things. but hey like sheeeela said, "for every woman theres a man that will make her stronger. for every man there's a woman that will make him change." and this certain one, no isn't making me rush into any relationships. patience is a virtue. and so far, he's got a gold heart. nooooo not another one with a cold heart. (: don't know how things happen like this. whennn you've got a good thing, don't screw it up. althoughhhh he says he's not worthy, he's trying and trying. and i love that. i'm his onnnnly yogurrrrt girl (; hahah. and i'm gonna throw it at his face. haha. apparently i gottttt scrub out alll the pointless memories, and make room for more, haha. he's silllly but gets me going. & for that other person out there, thinkin' i'm probably stupid for moving on. yrrr stupid because you don't know the deal. you don't know the real deal. the sht that went down, and why it went down like that. it's not my fault, and why would i stick around with something that only takes me for granted. No girl deserves to be treated that way, no girl or person needs to deal with all the pain i've dealt with. i'm stronger and bettttter today, cuzz life's too short to dwell in alll that's wrong. :) and boyyyy, i ain't missing you. i'm happy.

possibly to good to be true.

fyi: my hearts on hold.

i was fed up, and tired​ of cryin​g my <3 out.
when we could​'​ve been havin​g good times​,​ throu​gh & throu​gh.​
don'​t go jumpi​ng to concl​usion​s about​ what i've got right​ now.
becau​se you reall​lllll​y don'​t know the story​,​ okay.​
i mean i get why you would​,​ but don'​t it's not neces​sary.​
you don'​t reali​ze the sht i faced​,​ and took in day in, day out.
i gave my heart​ to get it throw​n back in my face,​ every​ time.​
i never​ ever gave up, until​ i woke up and reali​zed i don'​t need this.​
no one needs​ that.​ -_- hnstl​y,​ didn'​t want it to go down that way.
but that'​s how it had to happe​n,​ and i won'​t loooo​k back.​
becau​se i final​lly stood​ up for mysel​f,​ inste​ad of alway​s holdi​n back.​
the pain you felt,​ isn'​t half as hard as the pain i've dealt​ with.​
going​ throu​gh alll of those​ days of falli​ng and getti​ng back up.
made me stron​ger.​ so stron​g that i could​ pulll​ll that off.
and i'm proud​ of mysel​f,​ just as much as every​one else is of me.
your proba​bly sorry​,​ sorry​ that you got caugh​t & it went down like this.​
but i cared​ for you, becau​se i loved​ you. no, i don'​t hate you.
i'm thank​ing you. i'm wiser​/​stron​ger/​brave​r 'nd ain'​t putti​ng my guard​ down.​
it's kept up high where​ it belon​gs,​ and my heart​s on my sleev​e.​

i hope she'​s just as good or even bette​r to you than i was.
altho​ugh,​ i gave it my all, and tried​ to bring​ the best in you.
maybe​ she can do it. becau​se appar​ently​ i faile​d.​
take care.​ you need to give respe​ct in order​ to gain respe​ct.​
'nd be humbl​e.​ serio​usly.​ don'​t say it, act on it.

i'm happy​ now, actua​lly more than ever.​
hope you are too.

and this is what yr missing out on.

MEGANCLAIRE is always -
HI livin', gum smackin', good time chilllin', alllllllllllllllllllllday cheeeszin',
a younnngin', solo flyinnnn', menchie's workin', money $$$ makin',
weekend snoozin', myspace addictin', straight up speakin', frkn procrastinatin'
sometimes bloggin', constant chattin', nonstop talkin', easy goinnnn',
never hustlin' trippin' buggin' bullshittin' or judgin', heart handlin' just bein',
God worshipin', tongue twistin', boss bitchin',
what's happenin'?

i've got my eye on you.

Update. Update! Update?
So what's been happppppenin'?!

Welllll i know it's late but HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
The last a week or so, has been one heck of a weeeeeek.
You don't even know the half of it.

Let's seee.
Chan's house, for valentine's day was fun.
:] Got to see my waipahu thug mama's & extra credit.
Whatttttevr, everyone cooked, welll i baked a cake.
It takes superrrr good with ice cream.

The next to days of my weekend were alright.
My rivalllll became one of my good friends, she's cool.
We're cool now, and she was my partner.
For the VP tournament, I think we did good.
Even if he didn't place. I had loads of fun,
except for the fact that I hurt my leg badly. -_-

Monday - President's Day.
Nothing grrrrreat, I wish I went to exclusive.

Back to school, whattttta drag, : didn't do my work.
Ugh, i've become so much lazier, & it's hurting me and my future.
Today I'm thinking about going to exclusive w/my bestfriend.
& dare ohhh, kaylalalalala, maybe even __________.

Welllllll i'm in graphics right now,
and it doesnt get any more borrring.
I don't feel like making stickers or shirts.
Over that played out junk.

Wellllllll i'mout for now.
Laters (;

NO PHONE! :( horrrrrible.

i'm so tired of you.

tired of you taking advantage of my heart.
just let me go in peace, not pieces. 

since your back

it's back to the same old shit.
you treat me like i'm a little kid.

if you have realized it. i've GROWN! >:(
so cut the cord, and let me go. lockdown 24/7.
beginnin' to wish you were still gone.

it's not fair, how you can trust me so much.
but once he got back, your spineless.
i don't even know who you are. seriously.
these are the times when i feel like..

i feel like i'm just another burden in your life.
i feel like i'm just an accident waiting to happen.
i feel like i'm not even your daughter.

like i said before.
i grew up! i FUCKN grew up.
'nd yet you still treat me as if i have no clue.

with or without you.

how the fuck can you walk back in our lives.
as if nothing happened! >:( i wish you went away.
deep inside i sometimes wish you did walk away.
but the only thing is mom's not strong enough.

i am! i hate how you make me feel like shit.
what did i do wrong? i did nothing wrong.
again, i'm placed in another situation,
where i feel like i ain't good enough.

thanks, your fuckn special.



the third day of another month.

he's back. he's actually back.
yet i still deep inside hate him.

i'm home with my father, no tension.
but something about it that makes me not wanna be around him.
i guess it's just that he's been gone for half a year.
zeeeeeero communication.

feels like nothing changed.
-_- he needs to realize i'm grown, 'nd still going.
i've changed since last august? 'nd he's gotta cope w/it.